A Beautiful Process

Well this entry tonight I promise will not be as down and angry as the last one ;) and for my friend who thought he'd have to wait another year and a half for a new post, you shall be happy that you were wrong ;) to those that commented on the last one, thank you for your love and support, I am so grateful.

First I will have to say this these past two weeks since my last post have been hard, I have had lots of conversations with God, myself, friends, explaining that I have been lost and confused and angry that I don't know where I am going...its not been an easy two weeks thats for sure!!

But thankfully for some dear friends that have not let me walk this alone, I have gotten some great perspective and a picture of what has really been going on, and I can say its part of a beautiful process (thanks Shay for that wording, it has resinated in me!!)!


Even today the Lord used some friends to once again to confirm to me that He is proud of me for being obedient and trusting him, and one conversation came from someone I never even imagined it coming from, some prayers from 2 sweet friends and along with Pastor Robert's message made for a sweet morning!!


I had all of these thoughts about what I thought this process was supposed to look like and all of it was MY process not God's so...I am once again at a place of surrender, I don't want to be the child trying to get out of my daddy's arms to do what I want to do/feel I should be doing, I want Him to just hold me, love on me, sing over me, talk with me, and just hear His heart beat, and there I will find what He has for me.


My friend thanked Him today for this beautiful process He has me on, and as I was thinking on this thought this afternoon, He reminded me that I AM A BEAUTIFUL PROCESS!!!  My life has had lots of junk in it and I've been a mess, but HE has come to sculpt me into a beautiful piece of art in every area, and yes its a process until I am reunited with Him when He comes to take me home with Him, but in no means do I have to live this process as a broken, ugly mess as satan would like, but I can be beautiful as I am hearing Him, surrendering, and obeying Him!!  I have come a long way since first putting my life in His hands at the age of 8, and boy do I have a long way to go, but I am beautiful just the same ;)


So I will say this, that if you wonder what I am doing, or where I am going at the moment, I am right where my DADDY wants me, and thats in His arms, and that's the only place to be in this season! 


A few verses that have been a reminder for me that I shall leave you with tonight:

Psalm 34:8
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good; Blessed is the man who trusts in Him!

Psalm 34: 10
The young lions lack and suffer hunger; But those who seek the Lord shall not lack any good thing.


Psalm 34:22
The Lord redeems the soul of His servants.  And none of those who trust in Him shall be condemned.


Psalm 33:20, 21
Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield.
For our hearts shall rejoice in Him, because we have trusted in His holy name.